The Times I Knew I Was Gay – Eleanor Crewes

Similar in style to Alice Oseman’s “Heartstopper” series, Eleanor Crewes' "The Times I Knew I Was Gay" explores the author’s confusion as she navigates her burgeoning sexuality.

A choppy narrative and sparse illustrations made it difficult to truly connect with the emotional turmoil Crewes walks the reader through. Initially intended as a 10-page micro-comic, it certainly appears that was the right length for a story that felt incredibly thin. 

Either Crewes was holding back, or she didn’t have much to add beyond the initial introduction of her several year cycle of dating men, coming out as a lesbian and going back in the closet. There’s very little introspection, which is interesting since she’s nearly a decade removed from these experiences.

While the format makes this a quick read and easily accessible for younger readers exploring their own identities, many adult readers — especially those familiar with Mike Curato’s “Flamer” or Maia Kobabe’s “Gender Queer” — may find the surface-level storytelling a step back for the genre.

Despite its shortcomings, "The Times I Knew I Was Gay" still holds value. The book can be a validating read for individuals questioning their sexuality, particularly those exploring bisexuality. Crewes' journey of repeated "coming outs" may resonate with those whose path out of the closet hasn’t been linear.

Ultimately, the book's greatest strength lies in its message: every journey is unique. While it may not be groundbreaking in presentation, it adds another voice and perspective that may find someone when they need it most, and for that, it deserves credit.

Rating (story): 3/5 stars

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Format: eBook (library loan)

Dates read: June 8– June 9, 2024

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